Team Jacob!

Today I turned in my final paper for the semester, uploaded my web project, and took the last final for the semester. I am done with one semester...yay!

Went Christmas shopping this afternoon and finally bought some presents. Today I concentrated on the grandkids, but one more paycheck and I will pick a couple kids off of the salvation army tree. I make sure to do that every year. It is my gift to myself.

Tomorrow is the the first day in a very long time that I have nothing to do. I am going to sleep in. I am not getting up at 6am. I'm gonna do some much needed cleaning. My husband has been in charge of the cleaning all semester, and lets face it, men do not see dirt the way woman do.

But most important on my schedule tomorrow is to read the fourth book of the twilight series. I have been saving it all semester just waiting for enough free time. I cannot wait to get into the story. TEAM JACOB!!

My master piece

My web project is done!! I asked a friend to proof read it for me. When that is done I will put the link on blackboard. I'm so excited :)

A Quickie

Its 0230 in the morning and I am at work. I am so tired. I think at best I slept 15min since I got up Friday morning at 0600 for class. Things went well in class to day and for the most part I am done with the final project. I had some publishing problems, but they have all been worked out. All I need to do now is get to my home computer and execute the final uploading. I can not wait to know it is done.

I have showed my creation off at work all night, and they all think I am now a computer genius. I laugh because my knowledge is only a small chip out of the iceburg. I celebrate my achievements in computers though.

Well, back to work...

A long Holiday

I am back from Thanksgiving winding up my classes. I was only gone a week, but it was a long week. Thanksgiving was nice. I enjoyed the grandkids, however, there was no left over turkey after dinner. That news in itself is depressing. My waist line is better for it.

Friday I went to my 20year class reunion. Yes, it has been that long. Most everyone became older and fatter like myself. The men had less hair. I saw my oldest friend, Tonya. We went to preschool together. The cutest most popular boy in school came up to me and said, "I remember you, do you remember me?" He asked like it was actually a possibility to forget him. Perceptions are strange. All in all it was a good night.

Saturday was rough for me. My best friend and love of my life died in August and I went to his grave. I missed the funeral because I am here in Florida and he was there in Michigan. I stood on the grass numb with tears just behind my eyes. He does not have a grave stone. His mother cannot afford one. I cannot imagine this world without him in it, and I do go on each day aware of his absence,but only shock has set in. I miss him beyond words.

I am not a weak person, and I know that life goes on both in this world and in the after world. However, how do I say I am devastated without sounding self absorbed?

deep inside
I am slumped into a ball
the tears are welling
in my eyes.
I pray
you never see
a single tear
slide down my cheek.
I am standing before you
and you see me
standing tall,
but you have been decieved
because,
I am about to fall.

Teusday I returned to the final week of school and I have been writing papers, and finishing projects non stop since. The end of my first semester back in school. Boy did it go fast. It is just a beginning but it is nice to have made another step toward my goal. I have been slowly walking this uphill trail since the labor pains started on my 17th birthday and I am ready to get to the end and have hot chocolate.

As far as the project, it is coming along quite nicely. I will write the reflective memo after this entry, and then it is just tying up loose ends. I need to cross my T's and dot my I's. Good luck on finals everyone. It all starts again in January.